yet another turn for the hippie (2.5.10 last update!!)1.0

[RusticTrain]

Do you know how hard it is to sleep with a discolated left shoulder and a broken bone in the right hand?

It was extremely easy for me... I had a dislocated arm and 3 broken fingers and it seriously helped me sleep... or maybe that was the percocet they gave me. Anywho, I don't know what happened to you Hippie. I don't know why you're in such physical and mental pain. I can tell you one thing from experience though. The shittier a situation in your life gets - the happier and the better person you will become of it. As a wise man once said (me): True happiness cannot be achieved until absolute sorrow has been endured. While none of us will ever see either side of the far end of that spectrum, we must love what we are able to get. We are who we are not because of the things that have shaped us in the past, but because of who and what we do today. Our ugly problems from days past are merely training tools to help show us the beauty in our life today.

I used to be just about as depressed as it gets (unrelated: at the same time I was also beating the SHIT out of myself from skiing and BMXing 24/7, hence many dislocated shoulders and the such). Now, however, I am a truly happy person. I still have many of the same problems that used to make me stay up all night everynight crying, but now instead of loathing them I embrace them. I'm truly happy when something really shitty comes my way as it gives me a pleasant reminder that somehow, someway, these problems that fuck with me today will make me a better and more worldly person tomorrow. Without major problems in our life we wouldn't be capable of being truly happy, as we would have nothing to significantly compare it to. Be happy that you're depressed. I sure as fuck do. It's one of the most important steps you must take in order to become a truly good person.

[Rat-morningstar]

instead of "confusius says" i'm going to say "viper says" now

[Hippie of doom]

Viper i thank you for your words of wisdom. They do meen alot. I have never felt like this before in MY LIFE. I have had 6 years worth of life changing stress, straight. (in a nut shell my fater is killed in a horible dump truck accident, with in the year my mom ended up homeless, my soon to be ex-wife throws me out of my appartment 5 months later and leaves me homeless, 3 months after that she moves with her parents out of state leaving me homeless and taking my son) . So i definately know how to roll with the punches.But this time i totally got sucker punched right in the jaw. Its kinda like someone showing you heaven (the situation i was in with this amazing woman) and you get to feel it and see it and hear it but at that moment when you realize what it is your looking at, its all taken away from you in the blink on an eye. Shit i have never had more in common with ANYONE in my entier life, even my soon to be exwife. SHE IS PERFECT!!!

It was soo bad and stressfull that it made my body start shutting down. I have been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks over this (4 mini strokes all from stress) and now a dislocated left shoulder and a refracture of my right hand while in the hospital. (Anything else you want to do to the hippie life?) And it just keeps getting worse and worse every day and i still dont know when im getting out of this death hole. It comes to a point that im afraid to put my head in the sun cause every time i do i get kicked in the teeth. And with this situation i was just starting to feel the warmth of the sun on my face and i was starting to be happy (something i hadnt been in years) If i get through all of this i just might me super man but i doubt it cause i know im goona get kicked in the teeth again. But either way viper i thank you for your support. I truelly appericate it.

[RusticTrain]

As a wise batman once said:



Why do we fall down?

So we can learn to pick ourselves up again.

[Rat-morningstar]

as lonng as you make shure you don't turn into an insensitive ass, it's going to get better. you'll meet other women, and at least 1 of those wil be exactly what you want. and trust me, there is no "miss perfect", she can be good, but nobody's perfect.

and p.s.: don't stop fighting, the second you stop you'll let the mo fo win

[kevkingofthesea]

don't stop fighting, the second you stop you'll let the mo fo win

This can't be reiterated enough.

Keep on truckin', man.

[joe]

i am the mo fo

[Sidecutter]

Hippie needs a good, one-handed controller and a copy of TF2.

Nothing relieves stress like a good game.

I'd even let you kill me, Hippie. I bet I could even talk Kat and NorCal into dying just this once!

[Nic]

1) sneak behind a silly sniper as a pyro
2) shotgun taunt
3) profit

[Hippie of doom]

Again i would just like to thank you all for your words or wisdom. They help alot. But this is the deepest in the void i have ever been. Like i have said before this situation i was in about a month ago is almost as bad as when my soon to be ex-wife left me and took my son and left me homeless. The physical thearpy sucks ass. But the whole in my heart is WAY WORSE then anything. There will be other women but none like HER! And that makes me truelly sad. Like i said before Its kinda like someone showing you heaven and you get to feel it and see it and hear it but at that moment when you realize what it is your looking at, its all taken away from you in the blink on an eye.


I saw a mother with her little baby when I was walking here
There's something 'bout a little baby that makes me laugh
They don't seem to have a care
And I wonder if I'm ever gonna feel that way again

I spend a lot of time looking forward
Looking back and looking down at my feet upon the ground
I fell backwards and when I opened my eyes
I found myself staring straight up in the sky
And it seemed like there was something there to learn
When I realized I had nowhere else to be
And the only sound that mattered was the wind that blew her voice so gentle through the trees

I will keep you all posted.

[joe]

keep the big picture in mind:

in 200 years everyone you know will be dead anyway, and long forgotten

in a few billion years the inner solar system will be engulfed by the sun as it runs out of fuel

in a trillion trillion years the universe will die a heat death

at that point none of this matters anyway. so just try to forget about her

[Mad_Dugan]

I don't know how to phrase this eloquently, but the most important thing in this situation is your son.

[Hippie of doom]

I know that dugan. my son meens the world to me. He is the only thing that is getting me through any of this. But believe me i have tryed to get HER out of my mind. Like i have said before considering the last 6 years of my life if i wasnt good at rolling with the punches i would have been dead along time ago. But this time i have no idea how 2 roll with this sucker punch. She is truelly amazing i have never met a woman like her nor will i ever again. I was and am and always will be in total awe of her. I have no idea why or how this happened or anything It just did. She was and is DEFINATELY one in a million for sure. I would give up a fortune just to hold her. But thats never goona happen. I will some day or year or decade get through this (i hope). All i can do is thank you guys for helping the hippie. (usually im the one helping with the good advise)

[joe]

in my experience, one in 5 or 1 in 10 chicks has something special, but love will fuck your brain up and make you irrational and you'll think it's 1 in a million. really there's a lot of women out there and there's very good odds you'll find another who is just as special, in a different way completely that the first chick was missing.

but you shouldn't really take relationship advice from me. i've barely had one decent relationship in my life and it only lasted a few months and was pretty much off-the-charts dysfunctional, and broke my heart so badly that i will never be in a relationship again.

[bl4nk]

Plus, if she's only one in a million, that means there's about 7,000 of her out there.